It has been a while since I talked about my weight loss journey. A lot has happened in my life since I last wrote about it. If you are an Instagram follower, you might already know that I gained weight over the last 1,5 years. I think a lot of things had to do with that, but what happened is that I stopped exercising regularly and stopped doing weight watchers. I rejoined weight watchers in august 2018, I also went back to the gym. I still can’t run because of my injury sensitivity.
What really helped me in the last couple of months is to read more about body positivity (like @bodyposipanda) and about the diet culture and how it affects people’s body and mind. I really love reading stuff from @unfattening, a fellow doctor who debunks diet myths and is pro normal eating. I really try not to think of food as bad/good or healthy/unhealthy. Of course, if you eat chips and chocolate all day you will gain weight and you will miss micro nutrients. But, if you eat cucumbers and tomatoes all day, you will also not be eating healthy! 1 piece of food cannot be either healthy or unhealthy, it’s the balance and the whole lifestyle which makes you eat healthy or unhealthy. Thinking of it that way, and really permitting myself to eat anything (in moderation), really helps with not going into that restrict-binge cycle.
I decided not to weigh myself anymore. I always get annoyed by how the weight does not reflect my diet on a daily basis, and though I know how it works, I still cannot stop it from irritating me. In the past, my weight has also kept me from living my life. I would be close to healthy weight, and was desperate to reach that, I would not go to parties or other social events where there’s eating involved, because I wanted to reach healthy weight that week. It sounds really silly, but I would really think like that. Of course, I am still aiming for healthy weight, but I’m pretty sure I’ll know when I’m on my goal ‘weight’. Maybe when I’m stabilizing, I’ll weigh again to see how it goes, but for now, the scale is a no-go for me. I estimate my weight and put that into the weight watchers app every month or so.