Welcome to my blog! I´m Floordeboor, a 34 year old living in a suburb of Utrecht in the Netherlands. I´m a physician, doing my residency in psychiatry. I have a sister and 2 brothers. My eldest brother has a 6 year old daughter and a 3 year old boy, both so cute and loved. I don’t have a big group of friends, but I do have a couple of amazing people who are very very dear to me. I value a good friendship more than having many superficial friends! I’ve lived and worked in Ghana for half a year during my studies and have been back there a couple of times. I love travelling, especially to African countries, they make me more mellow and laidback and make me appreciate the small things in life.
I started this blog to write down some of my (mealprep)recipes and tips, because I always get a lot of questions about them on Instagram. Let me first tell you something about my weightloss struggles!
I’ve been having trouble with my weight since the age of 10. I was a very active child, eating a lot, but also did sports a lot (athletics, tennis and volleyball) till at one point I got a knee injury and the doctor told me not to exercise for at least a year. I think at that point I started gaining a bit and my parents tried to help by putting me on diets (some of them were really crazy, like drinking yuk juices the whole day). Of course, I also wanted to lose weight and I don’t blame them for it, they did what they could at that time. But it created a very bad relationship with food. I would go and buy sweets after school and eat them secretly in my bedroom. That secret eating and eating my emotions became a habit, and it was very hard to break! Through my adolescence I struggled and went from diet to diet, losing some and gaining more. There was also the point of low self esteem, not thinking you’re good enough, not feeling worthy of things, which also really didn’t help my weight struggles. At one point, I think it was my first year of medical school, I started a crash diet (I know, I should’ve known better). It was a very weird and crazy meal replacement diet that made me lose 45 kg (100 lbs) without exercise and in about 4-5 months. I felt so skinny and so happy with my new cute clothes and all the male attention I got. But I couldn’t even keep the weight of for more than a month, I gained everything back and more! I kept struggling with the weight, and through time and knowledge (and also working in psychiatry, learning more about human behavior), I found myself one evening, sitting on the couch after a long and hard day at work, eating a very disgusting cheesy pizza and drinking wine. I looked at myself and felt so wrong! I was 119 kg (261 lbs), my clothes were tight, I felt tired and wheezy, lived in a mouldy 1-room apartment, it all crashed down on me and I thought: this has to change! I threw away the pizza and wine, cleared my fridge and cabinets of unhealthy food, went to the supermarket to buy healthy food and renewed my Weightwatchers account. This was march 3rd, 2014.
Up to now (jan 2019) my weight has gone down and up and down and up (lol, that’s the way I roll…), but gained so much! I didn’t only got confidence, a healthier and fitter body, but I also changed other things in my life. I restarted my search for a better house and I finally got a very bright and big 2-bedroom apartment. I went for another round of job interviews for the residency spot (I got rejected in 2013) and my energy, preparation and new found confidence helped me with getting accepted for a spot in 2015!
You might think, wow, how lucky! I think that yeah, there’s a part luck, but also a big part of making myself better, educating myself, and working hard for a life that I want. What really is different now, in comparison with previous weight loss attempts, is the knowledge that it will be a struggle for life! I will always have to watch what I eat and stimulate myself to exercise regularly. And I’m ok with that. Currently I’m still overweight, my goal is still to finally reach my happy weight. I currently don’t weigh myself anymore, but I focus on the things I have to do to lose weight. I really want to feel fit and strong, my workout of choice has been weightlifting from the beginning. So how did I lose the weight? Well, you can read about it in this post and I’ll tell you more about it in the ‘My views on weightloss’ tab, take a look!
Thanks for reading, when you have questions, just ask!